My thoughts on starting this is that I will write about my journey of trying to get my life back on track or maybe I would be more accurate by saying on track. By the worlds standards I do not have myself together. I just turned 45, when I reflect on where I am in my life right now I realize that it is nowhere close to what I imagined when I imagined my future. I still imagine a future. The optimistic me sees a happy confident woman, not "rich" but not struggling financially. I guess what I need to figure out is how to attain that. Work towards a goal/goals. Goals... did I ever learn to have those? stick to them? What drove me when I was younger that got me through some difficult things but now I have a hard time getting things done. Is it laziness, lack of motivation, depression? I always just floated from here to there and where I ended up never was that good but I did get by. I suppose I need to figure out what motivates me.
Some of things that I will look at are how did I end up a single mom ? how did I end up divorced? (two are not related) how did I gain weight? How did I lose my energy for life? have I given up? how can I get motivated? I will learn new life strategies and hopefully through some random writing can figure a few things out on this journey!
